The Things I Do When I Am Alllllll Alone

There are plenty of weird things about me. Whatever I embrace them. 

Lately I have been obsessed with watching haul videos on YouTube. 

I will watch any kind of haul, too. I am particularly partial to hauls of places where I shop like Forever 21, Target, Ulta, CVS and of course, the Dollar Tree.

I watch these damn videos for hours. I honestly have no idea why. 

But then I noticed a weird thing started happening....

I would go shopping and come home, sit down on my couch and go through my bag and describe everything I had bought, why I had bought it (usually the word "cute" was used at least half a dozen times) and when I would wear it and with what. I would do this with everything- makeup, clothes, pens, even food after grocery shopping. 

I would literally just talk about all this random shit I had just bought to absolutely no one. 

The sad thing is is that I didn't even notice that I had been doing it until yesterday when I got a gigantic package from ELF and started picking up each thing out of the box and elaborately describing it. I finally heard the batshit craziness that was coming out of my mouth .... and I kept going. 

This experience has taught me a few things about myself. Namely that I am well on my way to becoming batshit crazy and secondly, I spend way too much time alone. Even though I am technically surrounded by people all day and literally talking all day, I am in the human services field so I am basically always talking about the other person. It's always about them, their day and their problems. I always steer the conversation back if it does get too focused on me because we need to maintain our boundaries and if I were to get started talking about myself, I probably wouldn't stop. 

So yes, I make invisible haul videos to no one in particular and I enjoy it. It's weird, kind of creepy and a huge waste of my time. But I love it so I will continue on doing it and I am not even ashamed to admit it seeing as how I just announced this creepy fetish to the entire blog world and all 15,000 45 of my readers. 

Have a great week, folks!